Today 5/20/22

Today 5/20/22

Today 5/20/22I’ve been watching the world over the last couple of years, maybe longer, and these laws, California’s SB 128, Lowering the age of consent, consent laws, and normalizing pedophilia, amongst many others, are crazy, narcissistic, victim-full, and frankly abusive to the everyday person.

Most of you know I was physically, mentally, and sexually abused as a child. Molded into a beautifully broken adult. Brocken adults are easier to control through fear and manipulation, and “if the abuser were any good, the victim wouldn’t even know it was happening.” (Oprah Winfrey)

Victims all around the world are not only being slapped across the face but invalidated and tortured daily. Daily reminders of real demons that now live in their heads and this planet plaguing their very existence of man.

Our leaders can no longer define what a woman is. The people that are supposed to be educated, protective over their people, and help “The People” live, heal, and exist safely are an eco in the past.

We can’t agree on gender, pronouns, or privacy any longer. Upset, our children’s educators must be able to share their sexual content, of one kind or another, with children to be validated enough to make their lives worth living. Anything less is racist. People expect fame and startum for what they do privately, not actual skills they possess. Changing history to benefit an agenda against the common person.

The citizens of the world are drowning. Mental illness is now weaponized and runs ramped. You only need to visit a social media platform, and they all seem to have their own rules and realities.

Inflation is a scary reality around the world. People are starving everywhere and don’t have access to clean water. If you don’t like this reality, all you need do is change the channel…don’t fix anything. Everything and everyone is disposable today.

today 5/20/22People are bought and sold daily into extreme abuse by the 1% as they take “The People’s money, sanity, life, liberty, and happiness. All the while reminding us of how happy we are.

Inviting in a world order to invade, fear-mongering, and take over a country THEY HATE because that makes sense, right? Don’t question authority. Become the Yes Gen all over again.

Defunding the police is the Left’s idea of what precisely…chaos, hate, and bigotry… I don’t know. They call the police if something happens to them, we’re just not allowed that luxury.

The Left seems to be seeing how far they can take some of this bullshit. Pushing the world around and controlling the narrative is crucial to keeping people “woke.”

The Right is conspiracy theories and “racism.” Standing on facts and not feelings. 33% of the American politicians, both Democrats, and Republicans, have some type of felony charges, including embezzlement and sexual crimes. They are criminals. Elect a criminal, and they will change the laws to best fit their criminal ways…

We have forgotten how to be tolerant and respectful and started attacking and blaming. Hurting one another in the name of being offended.

We have forgotten how to report the truth and started the “My Truth” movement, and as much as this writer would love, “My Truth” is seldom “The Truth.”

We have Feminists, liberationists, and misogynists, amongst many others, but no Humanists. Why can’t we all just be people, human beings, you know, THE SAME SPECIES?

We say Yes when we mean no and take no responsibility when claiming Victimhood over either person’s feelings, whether it’s true or not.

today 5/20/22Women take off their clothes and teach “it’s empowering” to girls when. Who actually benefits? All the while benefiting  Men Like Weinstein, Epstein, Prince Andrew, and so many others. Claiming Victimhood as a way of life. When young children have the courage to stand up against their aggressors, grown-ass women don’t say anything and allow the abusers to continue their reign of terror over others while taking movie parts, money, or other tangible THINGS and not protecting the next victim.

Victims are groomed into offenders as a rite of passage. This happened to me, so I’m going to do it to you mentality, preparing the aggressor to harm someone and brainwash them it’s acceptable.

Everyone is over-medicated and plugged in, turning the young into mentally depressed, attention-seeking, woke haters who sit behind a computer screen and act like asses.

Turning our men into revenue sources. At the same time, forgetting to attend to and take care of them and their needs because LGBTQ (Alphabet people) needs are the only needs that count in today’s world. Completely ignoring that in life and love you only as strong as your weakest link.

Celebrities teach our boys to wear dresses and carry purses because some are too afraid to rock the boat or be publicly humiliated and canceled.

As if it were nothing, killing innocent lives after birth and not recognizing a heartbeat as living is acceptable and normal. Turning them into energy, adrenochrome, and so much worse.

Using abortion as birth control over and over with no regard for the damage to their bodies and mental capacity. We don’t consider the daddy genes at all. I’ve met a lot of amazing single dads, and it would be a shame if they didn’t have the opportunity to be a dad.

Men commit suicide at record rates and higher rates than women, and it’s ignored while telling them to “man up.”

We need to remember “We Are The World,” JFK, Journalistic Integrity, humanity, and freedoms that have been lost in translation.

crazy leftistsStop allowing our leaders to embarrass “The People” whom they represent. If a controlling government doesn’t put its best self forward on the world stage, it can and will have consequences… dire consequences.

Teach our kids the difference between truth and feelings without prejudice. It’s ok to have feelings. I actually highly recommend it, but remember, feelings need to be put aside when reporting the truth.

Recognizing and understanding mental illness allows that safe space to grow but not project onto others.

Remind us all to respond, not react. Reacting is one of the world’s biggest vise. One of my biggest vises as well is catching myself reacting to others and absorbing their energy. I take their day as a reflection of me, so when someone yells at me or attaches me in some way, it tears my whole day apart. What did I do? How do I fix it when I just need to accept their opinion as that opinion and move on with my day?

That’s my today, what’s yours!! Mad Love Nicola

 

Manic Monday w/ Free My Cure & Nicola Dickens Episode 5 #MentalHealth

Manic Monday w/ Free My Cure & Nicola Dickens Episode 5 #MentalHealth

manic monday 5.1“Don’t feed the monster.  Often during the day, we feed our anxiety and stress with a lot of small, unimportant things.” These things are really unimportant, but they are poisoning your life. Repeatedly thinking about things feeds the monster and weighs you down, and can even make you sick.  This is a perfect section for this week simply because of having to deal with the pure stupidity surrounding Lazy Days and the excuses instead of fixing anything (and please, no hate towards anyone this is being mentioned during my storytimes, Thank You.) these storytimes are meant to help us document these events and educate new trailer off grider.    When the warranty lady we talked to started saying and repeating 20x, “don’t yell at me,” “I will hang up if you keep yelling,” however, we weren’t yelling, and we explained we were not yelling. We had her on speakerphone and wanted her to hear us. Also, she kept cutting us off, which would piss anyone off.  All I could think was how fast she jumped on victimhood. It was like someone came into her office, and she was putting on a show. Saying all of this for attention because it was close to 5 pm and closing.  I believe we were ripped off by lazy days down to charging us a $1400 gap insurance out of all of this.  But I don’t owe anything on the trailer.

I made my bin out of a cardboard box, pictures of huskies and weed that I could find in some magazines I had, tape, hot glue, and white copy paper.  This exercise took me a bit longer than I expected, but it was fun. I think in the future, I will do a smaller box.  Hot glue didn’t work as well as I thought, but the scotch tape did better than I expected.  During the break after my camera died, Grand Design sent me a private message, and I spoke to the previous representative. She remembered talking to me before, and she called Lazy Days to put a fire under their asses.

The Flower

How are you unique? What makes you beautiful? Instead of writing in this Anxiety book. I wrote down some of the things that make me on a piece of paper.  So if I decide to reuse this book or give it away, it is in excellent condition.  This exercise took me over an hour. I couldn’t think of anything.

1.  Caring, I would help anyone that needs it as long as I know or feel they are honest.  When I lived in a small house back in the day, I had a roommate, and every time I turned around, he was eating my food in the refrigerator that I marked as mine and not replacing it.  One day I got mad and yelled at him. He apologized and told me he lost his job a couple of weeks ago and he was hungry; he was sorry.  Well, I let it slide. I even bought some food for him.  About a week later, I found out he had quit his job. He wasn’t looking for another one and just took complete advantage.  And oddly, I felt terrible for him after that, even when I had to spend $250. to evict him.

2. Thirst for knowledge –  I love learning and reading. That is why I have started some of these self-help-type books and shows.  Even the different cannabis books like The Emporer wears no clothes by Jack Herer and the various educational pieces that the other activists have written throughout the years.

Manic Monday 5

3.   Optimistic – I always try to see the best in every situation.  A perfect example is I asked my hubby for two weeks to bring the drill home so that I could make some drain holes in some bowls I found at bashes, and he forgot. Well, Friday, I reminded him to bring home the drill so I could get the plants potted. He remembered to bring the drill home but forgot the drill bit, so he tried to make a hole in the bowls, and it broke the bottom out on accident.  I thought a moment and remembered I had some extra masks lying around and cut the mask to fit the bottom of the bowl, and it worked perfectly, and no reason to be mad.

4.    I take care of the people I love; I’d do anything for them – My hubby does very little at home. He works every day outside of the home, and I work at home.  I like cleaning and taking care of the little things. I even get up at 3 am to make his lunch every day.  I make his dr appointments. I do the majority of the cooking. I do all of this not because I’m supposed to. I do it because I want to.

5. Smart, not overly intelligent, but intelligent – I usually try to reason through a problem.  I have been looking for inexpensive flower pots to start my exotic flowers thread, and the only ones I can find I don’t want to spend that much on.  I always keep my projects in the back of my mind, so I get ideas when I’m walking through a store.  I found these insulated bowls that kind of look like the solo cup.  I picked up eight of them, and when hubby was trying to make drain holes, he broke the bottom out. It took me a few minutes when I remembered the disposable masks I had and used them as a drainable bottom, and it worked great.

6.  Honest – I am honest to a fault.  I wasn’t always honest when I was a kid to my mid-’20s. I lied if the truth sounded better, I was running from myself and wanted to feel special because I wasn’t.  I lied about my brother and I being twins, lied about money all the time, and lied if the sky were blue, I would call it pink.  After being married to a very dishonest person, I learned to be honest. I found out how it felt and quickly changed my tune. However, my brother will say something weird, like using his info for whatever, and that’s something I never did.

manic monday 57.  Creative – I love creating.  I’ve been working on a couple of cactus skeletons, a flower garden (at a trailer RV resort), my journaling and scrapbooking, and so much more so when I’m stressed, worried, anxious, or nervous.  When I’m feeling exceptionally broken, I will sit down with one of my many projects, put some tunes in, and go wherever they take me, which helps me settle down.

8.  I have no hate for anyone, I have people that no longer exist to me, but I don’t hate.  I no longer have the time or energy to be pissed or hate anyone.  It literally wears me out.

My protective Tattoo Many cultures use tattoos for various reasons, but protective tattoos are also a common practice, so we will design our own.  I designed mine when I got the cancer-free diagnosis.  My protective tattoo is the cancer ribbon with four paintball splatters with a cannabis leaf and Raffey’s pawprint. The ribbon is obvious, but the paintball splatters will be four colors representing the cancers I’ve had purple, orange, marigold, and yellow.  The cannabis leaf because I used cannabis oil to cure my bladder cancer.  Raffey’s pawprint because he has been an amazing service dog, and he’s getting up there in age. This tattoo would be something to memorialize him when he’s gone.

 

Grape Dream Weed Review from Nature’s Medicine by Nicola

Grape Dream Weed Review from Nature’s Medicine by Nicola

grape dream Grape Dream Shatter is a 70/30 Indica hybrid with a 25% THC Level.  She’s bred from Grand Daddy Purp and Blue Dream, and this strain is from Nature’s Medicine.  We’ve been using Nature’s Medicine for a couple of years here and there, and we recently noticed the packaging and how they put some of the strains in a plastic sheet. When you try to get it off the plastic, you end up losing part of the product because it sticks to the plastic.  They were awesome. They listened and replied to me professionally when I sent them the video.  They were very professional and apologetic.  They didn’t do the blame game, and I appreciate that more than you know.  In today’s business world, most respond to their consumers by offering nothing but excuses.  Thank you, Nature’s Medicine, for the great products,  professionalism, and care for others. You are amazing, and I would love to do an educational collaboration sometime.  This gram of Grape Shatter is very stable, not sticky, and not crumbly. I call this a snap-in pull. However very manageable, it’s mostly clear with a bit of powder or crumble in a small portion in this gram.

To medicinally treat Chronic pain, depression, fatigue, insomnia, nausea, stress, depression, and anxiety. The effects of Grape Dream Body High, Cerebral, relaxing, and sleepy. I found it funny that her sister’s strain is purple dream simply because I’ve had that strain, and it had very similar effects, and the taste was terrific.  Grape Dream and Purple Dream allow patients the chance to taste colors.  Grape Dream effects are surreal and dreamy, with the uplifting happy boosts to your sunny disposition launching you into a slightly sedative, hazy dream.  Overall, this strain’s taste and looks are excellent.  I’m thrilled to see that you guys have gotten into terpenes. The terpenes in this shatter gave it a fuller and sweeter taste.  I appreciate you guys.

grape dreamWhen I’m doing a video review, I fill out this journal that puts all the information in one place.  I get all of my information from credible sources on the internet, books I read, testing I’ve done, or what the dispensary does. I try to double-check every source to bring you the most accurate description. The tasting journal that I used on the show was given to me by another advocate. The company he worked for made them. I have added a printable page on my website if you are interested.  I’m also thinking about having a tasting journal book made for purchase. Please comment if that’s something you would be interested in?

grape dream I saddly broke my banger a couple of weeks ago, and we’ve been using this dab straw because I keep forgetting to order a new one.  The dab straw has been filled with wax, and we’ll spend the weekend cleaning to have a good clean dab for tasting next week.  What do you guys use for dabbing? Do you like it? Is there something you want us to check out? If yes, please write it in the comments below.  We are always looking for new vlog ideas every day.  I look for rocks everywhere we go, and when I was out last, I found this beautiful one-of-a-kind rock that has inspired me to get a rock polisher and start the jewelry business I’ve thought about for the last year.  To be honest, I also want a metal detector.  When I get manic, my OCD also becomes heightened, but I feel it’s me trying to rebalance.  Working on time-consuming, detail-oriented projects, I can get into my head music, a podcast, or a good lecture, and as I push to keep my schedule with little interruption, the closer I get to level.  When I was younger, however, I would crawl into bed and not get out until I felt better, and I believe it took 3 to 4 times longer to recover from the same episodes.  So, I encourage anyone who may have a hard time or has manic issues to find something, even if it’s coloring or whatever, and try some self-soothing exercises, because it’s up to us to be happy. No one can be happy for us.

 

Gorilla Glue Strain Review From Allgreens Dispensary with Nicola

Gorilla Glue Strain Review From Allgreens Dispensary with Nicola

Gorilla Glue #4  Gorilla Glue #4 is a 60/40 Indica Hybrid with a THC level of about 32%.  Gorilla Glue # 4 parents strains are Chem Sister and Sour Dubb and chocolate deasil.  GG #4 has a chemical, chocolate, coffee, and sweet.  she has an earthy almost eucalyptus smell and something else I can’t quite put my finger on but it’s super suddle however there’s almost no taste which kinda makes me wonder if that is possible when over flushed but I don’t know for sure.

Gorilla Glue #4 effects are body high, cerebral, energizing, euphoria happy, and uplifting.  Medicinally to treat ADD/ADHD, Bipolar Disorder, Chronic Pain, depression, fatigue, insomnia, loss of appetite, migraine, nausea, stress, and anxiety.

Gorilla glue #4 or the “original glue” and celebrity strain.  It is a patient favorite she has super heavy effects and a long-lasting high that will knock you on your butt.  Gorilla Glue #4 has a high that will slowly fill your mind with a lifted euphoria.   I’ve reviewed a ton of different varieties of Gorilla Glue #4 and I can honestly say this is one of the better ones I’ve tasted, good effects, and the overall profile is good. I love that Allgreens used these little containers versus plastic sheets where the concentrate usually gets sticky and messy as hell.  I also bought this makeup organizer and started storing all our smoke stuff in one place and as I label the containers themselves it leaves so much more room for more Medical Marijuana.

I started my Anti-Anxiety Workbook a week or so back and I’ve started monitoring myself on a daily basis what I’ve discovered was I need to track the food I’m eating every day, how I’m feeling, the medication I took, and how much, exercise, if I did a video, groomed, how much water I drink a day, and whether I took a nap that day.  The rest of the journal entries consist of what I do during the day, what I accomplished, what I didn’t accomplish, did I fight with my hubby or did we get along, did I clean the house or left it messy, and anything I think is important to my mental health.

 

Allgreen’s Dispensary $200 weed Haul with Nicola Dickens #Freetheleaf

Allgreen’s Dispensary $200 weed Haul with Nicola Dickens #Freetheleaf

allgreens weed haulWe’ve been staying at an RV Resort in Sun City and let me tell you if they had a grocery store I would have no need to leave the park ever. This place is insane they have a full library with computers, a woodshop, a jewelry shop so you can make jewelry, and ceramics, a heated pool open all night, laundry open all night with large washers, church, music, and concerts during the evening, and so much more. I will be going back when I’m feeling better because I didn’t get the chance to roam free.

Weed Strains 1. Pineapple Express 2. Princess Butter Haze 3. Blue OG 4. Critical Mass Flower 5. Gorilla Glue 6. Wookies OG 7. Berry Banana 8. Grape Gelato 9. Cheese Skittles 10. G-13 11. Lemon Jack 12. Jack Herer

A short story I recently had a kidney infection that sent me to the emergency room and one of the first questions the nurse asked me was about my allergies and I told her, she asked me if I had been vaccinated and I said no, her reply did you want it and again I said NO. The nurse gave me a horrible look of disapproval like I was lying and said check my records I can’t take the flu or pneumonia shot either because of a preservative they use and I’ll be damned if the nurse didn’t ask how allergic I was and my reply was how allergic do I need to be? I’m sorry but this insanity needs to end the medical field is essentially here for us, to heal us or help us pass with dignity and everything in between. So Medical professionals and administrations DO BETTER!!

 

Manic Monday w/ Free My Cure & Nicola Dickens Episode 3 #MentalHealth

Manic Monday w/ Free My Cure & Nicola Dickens Episode 3 #MentalHealth

Manic Monday 3.0Another beautiful day with you guys as we travel down the road to better mental health.  Were going to start by identifying our personal values and what they mean to us.  There are many values to pick from so we’re going to pick five of the values we value most.  You may have a lot of the same values as I do but they may mean a little different and that’s ok.  The reason we are identifying our values is that they are a large portion of our personalities and who we are and knowing our strengths and weaknesses.

To clearly identify my values I must first ask myself some questions.  What makes you really happy? What do you like to do and why?  what am I really angry about?  Which people real or imaginary do you admire most and why?  which people real or imaginary do you hate?

1.  What makes me happy?  friends, family, crafting or creating with my hands, Netflix and chill, talking with people online, hubby and pups.  2.  What do I like to do?  working with wood or cactus skeletons, growing cannabis walking with the dogs, videography, photography, and rocks.  3.  What am I really angry about?  The nightmares, my childhood, my brother being taken from me when we were kids, and The BS my mother would use to keep brother and me apart when we were kids and adults. Brother is actually what I call him and I’m not sure where I got it from anymore.  4.  People I admire most?  Robin Williams, Jordan Peterson, Rick Simpson, Russel Brand, and Matthew McConaughey and I admire them for being trailblazers even when it wasn’t popular. 5.  The people I hate and instead of naming them I decided to name their groups so we have Pedos, narcissists, racists, racists, animal abusers, and plain and simply mean people that try to hold you back.

The last section we are going to work on today is a letter to the person that gives you anxiety, fear,  nervousness, and bad feelings.  This letter should tell the reader how you really feel and be honest.  Don’t just say or write down the feelings you have to connect them to your values.  After writing the letter you may decide not to show the person the letter and that’s ok you can do a number of things with the letter however once the letter is written you can burn it, wad it up and throw it away, let them see it, or just file it away but there is no need to re-read the letter because it can bring up more back feeling and hen were back here doing these exercises again, which again is ok.

Last and certainly not least this is the letter i wrote to my mother (who is now dead).

Manic Monday 3.2Dear Mom or egg donor;
I am angry, sad, confused, and generally scared that people like you existed.  How you as a mother could allow the things you did, things you had done to me, and what you allowed.  I understand mental deficiencies because I struggle with my demons.
You thought it was funny when brother literally knocked me out, in fact, you would invite your friends over and have brother repeatedly knock me out while they watched and laughed.  The boyfriends you would bring around would expose themselves to us, punish us by hitting us all over our bodies and faces, being made to eat pieces of soap even going as far as to dip the soap in sugar, taking things away from us to the point that we got to open our Christmas presents one year only to turn around and make us donate them to where ever she thought fit because she was in a bad mood.
I started cooking and cleaning for brother and me when I was about 7 years old because you were high on coke, out of your mind and you weren’t eating.  By the way mom thanks for the eating disorder. Brother and I had to take the public bus 36 miles to school every day and we weren’t allowed home until dark.  But I’m pissed at myself more for looking for your approval that I never got.  You never gave it to either of us.
I’ve recently learned or remembered that I never needed your approval so this is a letter to say goodbye your freeloading days are over I will no longer feed the beast of your memory.
Goodbye and please don’t feel the need to visit because I’m moving on without you or your memory. Nicola
P.S. It has taken me a long time to understand and forgive brother for the things you made him do and then lying to Brother saying in the police report from Uncle Bill, that I said Brother touched me as well and it astounds me how far you would go to damage your children.  Brother was my best friend and protector in many ways and I needed him so you took him away.  Moving every six months took its toll on us kids being we were neer in the same place long enough to make friends.  Fuck You and goodbye. Nicola

 

 

 

 

 

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