Today 5/20/22

Today 5/20/22

Today 5/20/22I’ve been watching the world over the last couple of years, maybe longer, and these laws, California’s SB 128, Lowering the age of consent, consent laws, and normalizing pedophilia, amongst many others, are crazy, narcissistic, victim-full, and frankly abusive to the everyday person.

Most of you know I was physically, mentally, and sexually abused as a child. Molded into a beautifully broken adult. Brocken adults are easier to control through fear and manipulation, and “if the abuser were any good, the victim wouldn’t even know it was happening.” (Oprah Winfrey)

Victims all around the world are not only being slapped across the face but invalidated and tortured daily. Daily reminders of real demons that now live in their heads and this planet plaguing their very existence of man.

Our leaders can no longer define what a woman is. The people that are supposed to be educated, protective over their people, and help “The People” live, heal, and exist safely are an eco in the past.

We can’t agree on gender, pronouns, or privacy any longer. Upset, our children’s educators must be able to share their sexual content, of one kind or another, with children to be validated enough to make their lives worth living. Anything less is racist. People expect fame and startum for what they do privately, not actual skills they possess. Changing history to benefit an agenda against the common person.

The citizens of the world are drowning. Mental illness is now weaponized and runs ramped. You only need to visit a social media platform, and they all seem to have their own rules and realities.

Inflation is a scary reality around the world. People are starving everywhere and don’t have access to clean water. If you don’t like this reality, all you need do is change the channel…don’t fix anything. Everything and everyone is disposable today.

today 5/20/22People are bought and sold daily into extreme abuse by the 1% as they take “The People’s money, sanity, life, liberty, and happiness. All the while reminding us of how happy we are.

Inviting in a world order to invade, fear-mongering, and take over a country THEY HATE because that makes sense, right? Don’t question authority. Become the Yes Gen all over again.

Defunding the police is the Left’s idea of what precisely…chaos, hate, and bigotry… I don’t know. They call the police if something happens to them, we’re just not allowed that luxury.

The Left seems to be seeing how far they can take some of this bullshit. Pushing the world around and controlling the narrative is crucial to keeping people “woke.”

The Right is conspiracy theories and “racism.” Standing on facts and not feelings. 33% of the American politicians, both Democrats, and Republicans, have some type of felony charges, including embezzlement and sexual crimes. They are criminals. Elect a criminal, and they will change the laws to best fit their criminal ways…

We have forgotten how to be tolerant and respectful and started attacking and blaming. Hurting one another in the name of being offended.

We have forgotten how to report the truth and started the “My Truth” movement, and as much as this writer would love, “My Truth” is seldom “The Truth.”

We have Feminists, liberationists, and misogynists, amongst many others, but no Humanists. Why can’t we all just be people, human beings, you know, THE SAME SPECIES?

We say Yes when we mean no and take no responsibility when claiming Victimhood over either person’s feelings, whether it’s true or not.

today 5/20/22Women take off their clothes and teach “it’s empowering” to girls when. Who actually benefits? All the while benefiting  Men Like Weinstein, Epstein, Prince Andrew, and so many others. Claiming Victimhood as a way of life. When young children have the courage to stand up against their aggressors, grown-ass women don’t say anything and allow the abusers to continue their reign of terror over others while taking movie parts, money, or other tangible THINGS and not protecting the next victim.

Victims are groomed into offenders as a rite of passage. This happened to me, so I’m going to do it to you mentality, preparing the aggressor to harm someone and brainwash them it’s acceptable.

Everyone is over-medicated and plugged in, turning the young into mentally depressed, attention-seeking, woke haters who sit behind a computer screen and act like asses.

Turning our men into revenue sources. At the same time, forgetting to attend to and take care of them and their needs because LGBTQ (Alphabet people) needs are the only needs that count in today’s world. Completely ignoring that in life and love you only as strong as your weakest link.

Celebrities teach our boys to wear dresses and carry purses because some are too afraid to rock the boat or be publicly humiliated and canceled.

As if it were nothing, killing innocent lives after birth and not recognizing a heartbeat as living is acceptable and normal. Turning them into energy, adrenochrome, and so much worse.

Using abortion as birth control over and over with no regard for the damage to their bodies and mental capacity. We don’t consider the daddy genes at all. I’ve met a lot of amazing single dads, and it would be a shame if they didn’t have the opportunity to be a dad.

Men commit suicide at record rates and higher rates than women, and it’s ignored while telling them to “man up.”

We need to remember “We Are The World,” JFK, Journalistic Integrity, humanity, and freedoms that have been lost in translation.

crazy leftistsStop allowing our leaders to embarrass “The People” whom they represent. If a controlling government doesn’t put its best self forward on the world stage, it can and will have consequences… dire consequences.

Teach our kids the difference between truth and feelings without prejudice. It’s ok to have feelings. I actually highly recommend it, but remember, feelings need to be put aside when reporting the truth.

Recognizing and understanding mental illness allows that safe space to grow but not project onto others.

Remind us all to respond, not react. Reacting is one of the world’s biggest vise. One of my biggest vises as well is catching myself reacting to others and absorbing their energy. I take their day as a reflection of me, so when someone yells at me or attaches me in some way, it tears my whole day apart. What did I do? How do I fix it when I just need to accept their opinion as that opinion and move on with my day?

That’s my today, what’s yours!! Mad Love Nicola


Manic Monday Episode One with Nicola Dickens

Manic Monday Episode One with Nicola Dickens

In an ever-changing world, I find my Anxiety, if unchecked, can cause a variety of different and mostly no fun results. So today, I am starting my Anti-Anxiety journey here and would love you to join me.

This video and book serve as a guide and toolbox.   Including but not limited to; exercises to understand the mechanisms of Anxiety and its impact on your body, mind, and soul.   Exercises to understand your own functioning and to free yourself from worries. Simple tips and fun exercises for light stress management daily. Practices for long-term stress management. Exercises to develop your self-confidence. And coloring pages to help you relax, along with adult coloring pages.

banana mimosaI will be using several books to help us lower stress and anxiety levels, starting with The Anti-Anxiety Workbook. This book doesn’t name an actual Arthur, but it does leave us with an email to contact the author at about the author page doesn’t give the writer’s name, just that he suffered from severe Anxiety; an unnamed man born in the 80s and has suffered from debilitating Anxiety since childhood. We are responsible for our anxieties so let’s take a little time to heal and improve ourselves.

What is Anxiety? Anxiety is the response to a hypothetical situation that hasn’t come true and most probably won’t ever be true. It’s all in your head. These five words have been said to me a million times by the medical profession, but it is quite accurate in this situation. Your brain is the enemy here, exasperating your fears to the point of extreme fear and/or Anxiety that can make it hard to leave your home like me or debilitating fear when someone you don’t know knocks at the door. I have a condition called agoraphobia which means leaving my home alone can cause what I call earthquakes in my head. Everything gets jumbled. I get extremely dizzy and have passed out.

“If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, you will also suffer a defeat for every victory gained. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle.”
― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

 We are going to war with our Anxiety, going to war with a smile and love, so if you are ready, let’s get down to the nitty-gritty so we can finish beautifully like a butterfly emerging from its cocoon. As Sun Tzu says, we must know our enemy as well as we know ourselves. 

Whenever I have some quiet time at home and some bud, I start watching social media, and that’s never a good idea, but what I see A LOT is the Cancellation of women. From Judge Jackson’s refusal to define women saying she wasn’t a biologist to teachers trying to teach sexuality to our children in primary school. I even heard one teacher say she was told she couldn’t talk about sex or sexual orientation to her 3rd graders, but she was going to find a way to add it to the lesson plan every chance she gets.

In Flagstaff, Arizona, I was standing in the Starbucks line to get my coffee when two women, one transgender woman and one natural woman, started a loud verbal confrontation about being in line at the customer service counter. The transgender lady was furious at the other women because she would surrender her place in line because the transgender lady was running late. As soon as the natural woman answered, saying she was in a hurry as well and to wait her turn. When the transgender turned, the entire fight about sexuality ended with the transgender woman ready to throw hands, saying, “Your just jealous because I looked like JLo, when the natural woman replied, “you if she were a crack head.

And we wonder why Anxiety and depression run rapid because of the fear-mongering, entitlement, criminal, and lying politicians reinforcing crap legislation that leads the American people to poverty.  I have often wondered if all the sexualities that the left has pushed for years now.  Are they trying to dehumanize the people causing all of this because it’s easier to control what you own?


Free My Cure RSO Video Diary 9  with Nicola Dickens  #FreeMyCure  **Re-Published**

Free My Cure RSO Video Diary 9 with Nicola Dickens #FreeMyCure **Re-Published**

**Re-Published From October 7, 2017**

Gorilla Bomb RSO THC 28%

Gorilla Bomb is a hybrid between Gorilla Glue #4 and THC Bomb, both hybrid India’s. This is Gorilla Bomb’s maiden voyage for Rick Simpson Oil in the United States to date, so that we will be learning together with this strain. This is day number 9, and I slept like the dead last night and over the last week or so.  There is a break in the RSO Video diary for five days.  The reason is that I’ve been asleep for the majority of the time, but I am feeling overall better.  Nausea, pain, and hopelessness are subsiding, and hearing the words terminal cancer scared the shit out of me.  I’m not afraid of dying, but I am so scared for those I love. I know they will be fine, just not ready.

This is 100 grams of Rick Simpson oil made from Gorilla Bomb.  Rick Simpson recommends at least 60 grams of RSO for most cancer patients. When I contacted him, he said because I was on my 4th battle with cancer, to ingest 100 grams if at all possible as quickly as possible.  To overdose on Cannabis, you would have to ingest your weight plus in cannabis. Keeping this in mind, take the 100 grams as quickly as possible.  Looking back on this, now, four years later, I was able to complete the 100 grams in 33 days, topping out at 4 grams of RSO Oil a day.  I slept for almost two weeks solid, taking my doses at the bedside, with the effects milder and milder with every dose.

RSO is a concentrate or oil extracted from the flowers of the cannabis plant, or at least how I make it, but there are several different ways to make it.  The most common recipe I’ve seen it almost the entire plant is ground up, and the oil is extracted with an alcohol-based solvent then boiled off, leaving the oil behind.  Another way is adding CBD plant with the THC creating a 2:1 split.  However, I consider this Cannabis oil.  My approved method of making RSO, from Rick Simpson himself, is to use the flowers only.  This method makes potent RSO Oil.  The RSO oil not only helps to heal the body but also allows your body to rest and sleep.  Rest and sleep are vital to this healing method. I did 100 grams of RSO Oil in 33 days, increasing the RSO every two days, and I slept for about a week and a half.  My hubby took the meds to the bedside, waking me up a couple of times a day to take the scheduled dose.  I started to come out of it and wake up feeling a little better with every dose.  If you watch the entire RSO video diary, you can see the physical healing with each video!


$200 Weed Haul From @NaturesMedicine

$200 Weed Haul From @NaturesMedicine

Nature’s Medicine is a great dispensary to be close to when I’m broke for 2 reasons:
The first reason is pricing, they have some of the best prices for concentrate and flower, and when they have concentrate, they did run out recently; they are usually priced at $20 per gram.  The second is the dispensary itself, beautiful with large displays in this grand room.  If you haven’t been, I highly recommend it.  In this grand room, the registers (about 3 per wall) and run along the inside perimeter of the room.  The largest part of the room has different-sized large lite-up displays, highlighting the products they sell and large beautiful pieces of wood in the center of a few of the displays. I’m not sure what type of wood, but it looks like they are sandblasted (I’ve asked what kind of wood it is, and no one knows), but I digress.  The dispensary is beautiful.

In this weed haul, I picked up 10 grams of shatter
Fruit Stax Shatter                                    Papaya Cake Shatter               Apollo Haze Shatter
Orange Juice Shatter                              Animal Face Shatter                Cherry Cindy Shatter
Tangerine Biscotti Sundae Shatter          13 Wheeler Shatter                  Waterslide Shatter
Fruit Stax Shatter

This should last us 2 weeks. The product total was $200.00, and the MMJ state tax charged was $18.40.

$400 Weed Haul Video from Nature’s Best and Ponderosa Relief

$400 Weed Haul Video from Nature’s Best and Ponderosa Relief

Weed Haul from both Nature’s Medicine and Ponderosa relief dispensaries because the lab that Nature’s Medicine’s concentrates are made out of allegedly blew up.  I do not have any details for you guys at this moment, but I will research further.

1g Topanga OG
2g Sophies Punch
1g Purple Punch
2g Joel’s Lemonade
1g High School Sweethearts
2g Platinum Dosi
1g Kush Mints
1 g Tropical Heat
1g Canamo CBD Isolate

Nature’s Medicine

½ ounce Trophy Wife Flower from Nature’s Medicine

Today’s Medical Cringe story comes from my younger, I was in my early 20’s, and I had had to have a DNC because of a miscarriage, and I was lying on the bed my mother, my husband at the time, the doctor, and 2 nurses, standing around me like I was being sacrificed.  As the doctor was going over the scan reports and setting up surgery for endometriosis and as we were talking, I had to stop one of the nurses from playing with my belly button, or “bligger” as I call it, and I don’t mean a little tickle, I mean a full-on digging inside of my belly button like she was digging for gold.  I nicely stopped everything in the room and asked what the hell, to her very “oh Shit” reaction pulling completely away from me and the table very apologetically.  It was all cool, and we had a very long uncomfortable laugh in the room, and you could see the pure embarrassment on that poor nurse’s face.  I did end up having a complete hysterectomy because of cancer when I was 26 years old. Even after 22 years, I find this story one of the cutest things I always remember: this poor women’s face of pure sweetness, nurturing, caring, concern, and love. At that moment, I understood what a good mom looked like, and my mom was actually there.

I’ve spent 4 weeks in the hospital in 2020 alone, more than I have any other time in my life. I can still remember the sweet young nurse I only met 1 time in my life. I can still hear her apologizing for getting the lint out of my belly button, and yes, as cringy as I would call it today, she was doing it subconsciously. After surgery, I found out she went back home to take care of a parent who had a stroke.  I think of her from time to time when I am dealing with doctors and nurses that don’t “feel” their patients’ needs.

As a patient in a hospital, it is hard today in 2020 and 2021, and I do not see a lot of hope for change; with this global pandemic, there are a lot of rules that have been implemented to help protect the patients from direct contact, social distancing, immunizations, masks or face diapers…you choose, no visitors, everything is virtual except their illnesses.  Even most of the activities, volunteers, service animals, and being able to “borrow books,” computers or tech is not lent out right now, and places like Ronald McDonald House that operates in one of the local Tucson Hospitals haven’t been open since February 2020, walking around the halls on most floors have been prohibited unless you are accompanied by a nurse or a tech, the elbow bump…do I really need to explain?

I again am not writing this series of vlogs/blogs not to hate on the medical industry; that could not be further from the truth. I am writing this series because I think it’s past time for a serious conversation.  Our medical system is broken, our hospital rules aren’t protecting the patient in many cases, and the Hippocratic oath, in my opinion, lost its meaning. I’ve watched it not only break me as a patient, but I’ve watched so many of you guys going through the same thing I am, literally breaking the patient so bad they stop eating, drinking, talking, sleeping, we have literally laid in the hospital bed staring at the walls no tv, no external stimulation even in a few of my cases patient refused pain meds.

This channel gives tips on the uses of medical marijuana how it affects most people and me. Medical Marijuana was scary for me at first, so I scoured YouTube for an educational channel about the effects of cannabis. All I could find was people smoking it and having a good time. Still, no real information about each plant’s facts, I figured I wasn’t the only one that was curious, and Free My Cure was born. If you have a strain, edible, or any other cannabis-related idea and you want me to make a video about it, please feel free to email me at Most questions can be answered on my website at Disclaimer:

This channel is for Cannabis patients and adults; all opinions expressed during the show are just that, my opinion. Thanks! Final thoughts: Being a YouTube comes with certain responsibilities, and on this channel, I will always be 100% with you. I love what I do and love that you guys come to see me every day and offer encouragement, love, and support, and I can’t thank you guys enough!!! Please note this channel is for Cannabis Patients and Adults. It’s not intended for minors or illegal Marijuana consumption. Please always consult a Dr. if you have any questions or concerns. Medical Marijuana can affect people differently, causing some paranoia and or anxiety; if it becomes overbearing, using a little CBD will help calm those adverse effects and return you to a more comfortable state. A few people have asked an excellent question “Where do we find you if COPPA affects your channel?” So I decided to post all of my social media links below:

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