Ho’oponopno is a Hawaiian practice of reconciliation and forgiveness. “The problem is not the reality on the outside but on the inside. And to change this reality, we must change ourselves.” Krishnamurti
This exercise will use the simple formula – Sorry – Please Forgive Me – Thank You – I Love You First. You must recognize the situation and accept it. Forgive others or yourself, or even the Universe for what’s happening. Gratitude to help positive change and renew your love instead of remaining in the negative. As much as I love this formula, and I do, it would take up most of my day, so unless it’s super crazy, I’m starting with this once a day or once a week to get started. This should give me a little time to see how it fits.
Everyone goes through life with at least one mask, one for work and one for home. People like me use them to hide the pain of youth as protection. In this exercise, make a mask that reflects YOU! What does your mask look like, what colors, sayings, or what inspired your mask, and does it help? Does the mask highlight your qualities or fears? My mask would be that white smiley face the patient holds up with a tongue depressure in the depression medication commercials. I would then write These phrases on it. It’s Ok, Suicidal ideology wall, I’m ok, I’m strong, smile, close my mouth, swallow the knot in my throat and breath, Don’t cry, Love yourself, Smile, I’m not afraid, no tears, and I’m smart. I also choose the writing colors on the mask will be red, white, and blue. I am very proud of my country, not necessarily the government, but I love my country, and I feel like it’s been under so much scrutiny lately.
Coloring page sayings. The pain I feel today is the strength I feel tomorrow. Accept what is, let go of what was, and trust in what will be.
What if it happens
As the author said, I had had times when my anxiety was so high that it didn’t matter how well I did. I told myself I was a failure, a loser, incompetent, and even a bad person. It all came to a head in 2020 when nothing was going right. Every time I completed something, something else broke. When I had a friend, a colleague, and a person I revered sent me these horrible messages out of nowhere because of some political this I posted or BLM thing I posted. Ultimately going off about, we have different experiences and do not lump them together. Now, this bugged me and still does at times. And when I tried to ask what the person was talking about, I was blocked. This affected my performance on my socials. I actually stopped making content for just over a year, and this friend wasn’t the reason why. I had a lot going on medically and mentally, and I couldn’t see myself doing this anymore. This book and others have been a kick in the teeth. I needed to get back online and tackle my fears, but I also had a sense of liberation. What if I succeed?
The Worry Tree
So I thought I had forgotten my list however it was sitting right there. We will make a worry tree and place our worries on it. Write the worry on a leaf and color the leaf green if we have no control over it. If it’s a current worry color, it’s red on the leaf. You can also use any other coloring system that works better for you. My worries are:
- Getting my home cleaned before hubby gets home
- videos, video write-ups, my book
- tires for truck
- My oldest son
- My youngest son and his family and new baby
- Getting everything done before nap time
- The turf war between a javelina and myself, stupid javelina.
My Superhero Armor
Create your armor and or shield. It should be beautiful, Comfortable, and should look like you. You can draw your armor or glue pictures together to make your desired effect. I chose a shield. On my shield, there is a cannabis leaf in the middle with words again around the outside edge of the shield. The words on my shield are happy, healthy, good, evil, warrior, love, strong, and hate. Just under the pot leaf is a cancer ribbon with four paintballs splatters in the colors purple, peach, teal, blue and yellow. The pot leaf represents taking control of my medical issues and becoming cancer-free. The words are words of strength like secret weapons. The ribbon stands for the cancers I’ve had, and the colors represent the type of cancers. Purple, blue, and yellow stand for bladder cancer. Peach is for endometrium cancer and uterine cancer. Teal is cervical cancer.
Coloring page sayings: “Believe in your dreams, and they may come true. Believe in yourself, and they will surely come true”. “You can’t expect life to have the meaning. You have to find one for it.”
Mango Pineapple Shatter from Nature’s Medicine in Glendale, Arizona. Nature’s Medicine has been making some exciting advances with terpenes as their concentrates and flowers have started coming alive with flavor. Wanted to say I See You! T excellent job now. Wi h that being said let’s talk about Mando Pineapple shatter.
Mango Pineapple strain is a 70/30 indica hybrid. His parent strains, I believe, are Pineapple and Master Kush. She has a 17-19% THC level. Mango Pineapple is a beautiful mix of taste and effects. This beauty will hit you in both the mind and body with a high potency level. A few minutes after your last exhale, you will be on cloud 9 with a lifted euphoria and calm she brings. Be pre red for nap time or Netflix and relaxation as mango pineapple fades in. This st in is a creeper, meaning you won’t feel her creep up on you. She will just be there waiting. All this information is conditional. I couldn’t find the actual strain of Mango Pineapple, so I wrote this one up purely on the information I have been able to gather so far.
Mango Pineapples’ effects are body-high calming cerebral, euphoria, happiness, relaxation, tingly, and uplifted. Medicinally treat cramps, depression, headaches, migraines, muscle spasms, PTSD, and stress. I was able to compile these effects and medicinal purposes from how I felt and what others have said. So this is my Opinion.
I swear I’m not trying to keep showing and talking about stable shatter, but we’ve had several unstable shatters lately, and this isn’t as big of a problem, but the packaging doesn’t work in these cases. We need to put the appropriate product in the proper containers. If it’s supposed to be a shatter, but it’s grainy or sticky, don’t put it on these plastic sheets. Change the containers so patients can use all of the Medicine they are purchasing….just saying. I don’t mean to single any dispensary or cultivator out; however, this has actually been a thing, and it doesn’t need to be a thing. I have talked to nature’s Medicine. They are aware of the issue and were extremely friendly about it, which I appreciate…Please don’t blackball us.
As I’m editing the video, I see and hear just how tired I am, and this dab was needed. I was losing my words a bit more than usual, and it happens when I’m tired or sick. I ended up having to take my floater meds, and I haven’t had to in a while.
Cacti are definitely different than other plants and very fascinating to me. After the cactus blossoms we talked about last week, and I was able to harvest seeds from the “old Man” cactus, saguaro cactus, Prickly pear, and Jumping cactus. I’ll save the seeds for my farm hopefully in the near future.
I had my scan a few days ago and it was really cool. The doctor put a small camera in my stoma and followed the bag (in my body) to check for any damage, cysts, bleeding, or any number of things that can happen. With the camera going you could see the one-way valves leading into the pouch. The pouch was cool, as the camera glided through I could see these little finger-type things moving with the flow of urin. I have to go back soon and meet with the surgeon because now having bladder infections every month could cause damage to my kidney and then it’s game over.
Today we are working on our anti-anxiety workbook part 7. We are starting with 2 coloring pages, “Sometimes I win Sometimes I learn” and “It takes a lifetime to learn how to live”.
My Mantra: I am calm and centered. I work hard and I am worthy. I will make my dreams a reality. No one can stand in my way or hold me back. I even incorporated my jewelry with my Montra. I have rings that say “keep Fucking going”, “I am loved”, and Never Fucking Give up. Remember when making your own mantra always use strong positive words that have meaning to you. always use the present tense. always write in the first person so as to make it personal and in the present time.
Time to Worry
This exercise is tough and will be a challenge. Only allow yourself about 15 minutes of worry time and then you put it aside and start something new to help transition back into a more comfortable state of mind. My personal problem is if I’m worrying I have a hard time letting it go. It just hangs around looking for the next moment to steal or I just can’t turn it off. The book does state you can do this multiple times throughout the day but I recommend not having the same worry over and over each day.
I do a form of this technique. I have severe anxiety when it comes to checking my bank account. In the past, I never had much money and always had to budget tight. Knowing my spouse at that time was pissed if I didn’t have enough money for whatever he wanted to do and I would pay the price if he couldn’t. It’s been 10 years since our divorce and I have gotten myself down to about them minutes before I have to check the account I’ll focus my whole brain on the anxiety and then I stop myself and log onto our bank account. It also helps that he and I are finished and my husband now tries to make the anxiety easier and appreciate and love him so much for that.
A couple more inspirational coloring pages. “Be a warrior, not a worrier.” and “Create your own calm.”
In this exercise were supposed to use our senses and create a beautiful paradise including; what you can hear, taste, smell, or feel. Are there any animals or people in your paradise? Does this place calm or disrupt you? In my paradise, We are on a 120-acre farm with our trailer in the middle of the property. We would clear about 4acres to build 2 greenhouses, a barn, and 5 50amp RV power stations, with water and sewage. The entire inner square would be surrounded by pine trees, cottonwoods, and maple trees. The inner square would be completely walled in with several different cacti around. I will be tending the farm and animals. plant a full organic vegetable garden and cannabis garden. On my farm, I would have chickens, pigs, and goats along with the dogs Raffey and Tigger.
Chocolate Thai is formally known as “Thai Sticks.” This delicious beauty is a favorite around the world. She is said to be super tingling and having arousing effects. The high has a slow build-up and will come out of nowhere with a lifted sense of euphoria. You will find yourself loosening up and feeling happy, motivated, and creative, focusing on mental tasks and conversations. A physical relaxation with a heady lift keeps you focused as your mind flies high into giddy creativity that will have your mind flying into a crazy day.
Chocolate Thai’s effects are, Aroused, creative, euphoria focus, happiness, hungry, and uplifted. Medicinally to treat anxiety, appetite loss, depression, insomnia, nausea, and stress. Chocolate Thai tastes are sweet, chocolatey, earthy, spicy, woody, and nutty.
Overall the product is good, it has a nice flavor, and I can’t quite put my finger on the after-taste but nice. The color is good; there appears to be some crumble mixed in this product, and that’s ok. The shatter I call a sugar wax, a stable shatter should be solid, and if you drop it on the table, it will shatter. This concentrate is just gooey and sticks to the plastic sheet, losing up to half of the product to the plastic sheet gods. I’m playing, but I hope you understand that containers should be appropriate for the product, and in this case, it’s the wrong container for this product, no offense.
Today I decided to share the dessert with you. I live in Arizona, and the desert is alive with beautiful cactus flowers every May and June. Today I have a prickly pear leaf that was cut off a giant prickly pear cactus. I re-cut the original cut and put it in a planter with some good soil, and a month later, you can see where she is growing new leaves. It was that simple, water every day, and you’re on your way to wowing your friends. I also have a couple of flowers and the fruit off the prickly pear, and as you can see, there is an alow vera type substance that is secreted; this is like a super thrive for your plants; they will love it.
Next, I have the Saguaro flowers. Saguaros are a protected plant, and if caught cutting one down, they will fine you up to $10,000; finding them fallen in the desert is a common occurrence; I even have a few skeletons in the storage unit. Saguaro cactus also bloom in May and June, and they are beautiful. They are so beautiful that Arizona Highways does a full spread on them every year called a desert in bloom.
We have the “Old Man” Cactus is really cool and stands out because of the cactus needles that appear to be hairy or fuzzy all the way to the flower. It has a pink blossom that blooms only at night.
The Jumping cactus is really unique. Jumping Cactus or Cholla Fruit Cholla flowers have small hot pink flowers on the cactus fruit. The fruit on this cactus has fruit, yes, fruit on fruit. However, the fruit doesn’t ever ripen just grows more fruit the following season. I don’t know any other fruit that has this superpower.
The giant Dragon lily isn’t a cactus; it’s a bulb. It has a sweet vanilla-type aroma and blooms in a pod that generally holds four flowers. The blooms usually are large, about the size of a small exercise ball.
As I’m learning new cultivating skills, I’m surprised at how cacti grow and how they can help other plants heal, transplant, and maintain a healthy soil and water base. Cacti are not only great for other plants but for you as well. They have the ability to save lives from products or medication that use a cacti base to give a person much-needed hydration; when you’re lost in the desert, just be careful of those needles they bite. The only thing I’m missing in my garden right now is Aloe Vera, but I plan on fixing that issue soon.
As a side note this is my first youtube video that has the new intro and outro so let me know what you guys think in the comments below.
Today is Manic Monday 6, and I just wanted to take a moment and check in with you guys and make sure you are all doing ok in this crazy world. Have you reflected anymore on replying and not reacting when you are in a difficult situation? How about anxiety; have you fully understood that anxiety is an irrational fear that, in most cases, never comes to light. Have you figured out your personal values and how they affect your life? If the answer is yes, let’s continue on! We are about halfway through.
The coloring pages this week are “What if I fall but… what if I fly” and “Be the best version of you.”
The mental volcano comes into play when we allow the small little things day in and day out. I recently had one of these explosive outbursts with my hubby. We are an odd couple. He does the bitching, and I do everything else primarily because when I’ve finally had it, I explode, and I usually have the mouth of a trucker. However, this last time, I couldn’t take the yelling and cursing in the truck because of a stupid driver. Usually, I can hide in my phone, scrolling through my social media accounts, but this time, I went off, telling him enough all the way to shut the beep up. This only shuts him up for a short while, but I think his bitching helps put him in a better mood, and I’m not having that. I can’t take anymore.
What I would like to say is, Whom am I mad at
Industry Standard Lazy Days
I’m not bitching, but Hubby.
Let’s Go, Brandon. This Administration
They give social security a 6% raise, and congress gets a 21% raise. This Administration
Mommy Dearest My Eggdoner
You can take this book out into the middle of nowhere unless you are already there. Shout out the items on your list. Another fun way to do this exercise is to write each item on a plate or a ceramic birdie and smash or shoot them. If you have another idea, please write it in the comment below.
“When you are in cardiac coherence, you are relaxed and calm your heart rhythm is regular. The goal is to train yourself to balance your heart rate by following your breathing to evacuate your anxiety and self-regulate your emotions.”
sit down with your hands on your legs or a table, keep your back straight and close your eyes. Breath calmly at a rate of six breaths per minute for about 5 minutes.” Repeat as needed.
“Love is the beauty of your soul” and “The flower does not dream of the bee. it blossoms, and the bees come.”
The Crystal Ball
What’s your goal? Who are you with? Where do you live? What are your activities? And most importantly, Who are you?
The crystal ball would show my husband and I live on a 100-acre piece of property with a house that may be a barniminium-style house. The upstairs of the barn will have a balcony all the way around, and it will have plenty of sitting space. We will have room in the bottom part of the barn for cannabis processing. There will be three separate gardens for cannabis hemp and a food garden. We will have chickens, goats, and a few easier animals to care for. The property will have a wall completely around it to keep off the larger animals from eating our crops. We will have several 50amp full hookups and trailers for guests or employees to stay. There are exotic flowers and trees all around the property. Driving through the gate will make you feel l like your entering a different world.
In this exercise, my goal is a cannabis farm. What do I need to do to attain my goal? Business Plan, Build and finish all social media platform integration, Find land in the 6000-foot range, Find investors, and start purchasing cultivation supplies and mmj equipment.
On the Road
The steps along the way to achieving my goal. “Take a specific goal that is a part of your ideal future.” Visualize it. What is the Way? What are the steps? For my Marijuana Farm, the stairs I would have to climb are as follows; Research and fix our resume on the website. Schedule tasks for the website and social media. Make investment proposals. My health and mental health. Have daily content for social media and website. Supplies and equipment lists. Business plan. My staircase is as simple as it comes because I can draw. What do your stairs look like?
Stress Less& Self Care Cards
I picked these cards up before my surgery last year because I thought it would give me something to do. Well, it turned out I couldn’t work on any of the activities before, and I just found them again, so let’s check them out. Affirmations, worry less, and more.
Watching and processing this video, I laughed because I was sooo high by the end of the show. I was in no pain for the most part.
Sour Runtz strain is a 50/50 weed strain from Nature’s Medicine. She’s bred from Zkittles X Gelato strains with an average of 19-29% THC. This beautiful gram is from Nature’s medicine in Glendale off of grand avenue. Sour Runtz strain has a sweet, woody, and tropical pineapple. I consider this more of a snap and pull; however, other factors may prevent it from being a little more solid. Remember, shatter is supposed to shatter; that’s why it is named shatter. However, it tastes and looks great, and I believe the plastic sheet is an appropriate container considering we were able to remove all of the product off the plastic sheet.
Named after the iconic candy. Runtz high comes barreling down on you a few minutes after you smoke as the high starts to take hold. Starting in your head with calming lift just before you get those tingling goosebumps throughout your body, leaving you sedated and couch-locked. The effects of sour Runtz are calming, Hungary, relaxing, sleepy, and uplifted. Medicinally to treat Anxiety, depression, loss of appetite, chronic pain, insomnia, nausea, stress, and depression.
I was notified by youtube a couple of weeks ago that we now have super chats and stickers…What exactly does that mean? I have no idea, but I’m going to pull out my Youtube for dummies book and find out. Please help me out and put it in the comments below if any of you know. I also had an odd thing happen to me the other day. This guy came up to our trailer steps and the front door and was kind of looking in, but the longer I watched him, I think he might have just been fixing his hair. He didn’t mess with anything, and he wasn’t looking hard to see through the window because I was right there, and he didn’t appear to have seen me. Moving around these RV Resorts here in Arizona, I dod A LOT of people watching, and they have some odd behaviors. Maybe I will have a storytime. If you’re interested, let me know in the comments below.
AS I’m editing this video, I’m watching the background. A lady on a quad with her dog standing on the back. She’s going to take care of her horse. We’re staying at an RV Resort that has stables for their horses. When I get really stressed out, I go down to the stables and talk to the horses, which helps me immensely.
On a side note, Nature’s medicine, Glendale dispensary recently re-did their parking lot, and it’s a lot more convenient for patients, and I appreciate you.